Uninspired

I haven’t written a post in over a month. There hasn’t been much to write.

Dwayne has been busy with this semester, which has been a bummer. I’m hoping in about three weeks we can resume where we left off. But I think he’ll be picking up a lot of hours at work to save up money before next semester. So I’m not optimistic.

In addition, I’m disappointed to find out even more of my blog traffic than I thought was my weirdo stalker. I knew she was most of it. I knew my reddit posts drove traffic here, so when I wasn’t posting I wasn’t really getting readers. But it was nice to get readers when I did post! However, after buying an IP blocker and finally being able to keep her out, my traffic has decreased even more than expected. Sad.

This blog is for me. It was just supposed to be cathartic when documenting my heartbreak at the hands of the abusive wicked witch that cheated on my (ex) boyfriend, sexually harassed my husband, and killed my son. And I thought maybe some of the more salacious stuff could be good marketing. It helps a little, and it’s free, so whatever. But its main purpose is for me to express my feelings. Because I should be allowed to express my feelings.

Without going to court. Without worrying someone will show up to ambush me when I’m out on the town. Without someone pretending to be the victim when they have sought me out every step of the way, repeatedly.

It’s been a bit of a bummer that now that I’m finally free… I haven’t actually had anything to write about. I’ve had one post sitting in the drafts for almost a year now, but I promised a certain someone I wouldn’t post it until all the legal stuff is completely done. So I wait.

Should I write erotica? Would you all like that? I don’t know. But I want to feel inspired again.